9 weeks

Little known fact...

Did you know that Madison likes to play with her hair? She does it a lot when shes eating.

She is camera shy... She has yet to let me catch her cheese ball smiles or her giggling on camera... actually her brand talking in general.

She is the biggest baby I have encountered yet. Every single mother I have run into has asked me how old my baby is and is completely shocked when I tell them two months. They then go through and tell me how old their much smaller

much older baby is.

She is the love of my life and the most adorable creature known to man

I bought rubber bands so I will be trying to put her hair in poney tails soon. I tried a wee lil bit this morning but didn't have time. For now she's wearing a flower clip in her hair

I'm not sure I would know how to deal with a bald baby

after all of her hair

The first comment that people say about her is "look at all that hair!"

The next is "she looks just like you!"

I have to muffle my next comment of "actually she is p

ractically her fathers clone"

She is currently playing on a blanket on the floor just kicking around

She is almost wearing size 2 diapers she is wearing 1-2 diapers from costco then out comes size twos

I'm so sad that shes getting so big so fast! It makes me sad... She never really was a small baby but shes getting sooo big! Shes going to be crawli

ng so quickly

She is my little cuddle bug!

I went to my moms ward today and Madison was a celebrity. Everyone came up to her and loved her! I was glad I went to my moms ward tho. It was parker's farewell and everyone was there. It was like a reunion of the old Los Prados ward! I loved it! It was a blast!

Mondays, Tuesdays, and Fridays Ryan has classes which means that Ryan doesn't make it home til 10:30 or later so we have a very boring day those days. It makes it so I just want to hang out with my friend Wendy every Monday... Is that possible? Probably not but a girl can hope cant she?

Sleeping babies

I have a sleeping baby on my lap right now and all I can think about is taking a picture... But alas a baby who has fallen asleep breast feeding then using said breast as a teady bear would make a picture that I wouldn't be able to post or show anyone... sad day! She is adorable I have to admit... even when she uses me as a teady bear...

2 months

Madison weighs 13 pounds 7 ounces and is still 95-97 percentile. Her doctor says to keep up whatever I am doing because she is extremely healthy. She also said I could take her swimming if we wanted to just keep her out of the sun, and if I do put her in the sun use a big floppy hat because you can't really use anything on a baby til 6 months. She got more shots and now shes irritable and cranky. She wont let me put her down which I find interesting because when she was in the doctors office screaming she wouldn't let me calm her down. I didn't want to upset her so I just took her home in her diaper. Its so hard when she looked in my eyes with a look like "I thought you were supposed to protect me! Why did you let them hurt me?" I cry just as hard as she does every time she gets shots...

So Madison at twos months is my joy! She and I just hang out all day. She giggles and smiles even tho I have yet to catch it on camera... She "talks" to Ryan and I at night when she sits on his chest. Its a lot of fun! She is so strong! It scares me how big shes getting! Theres times when she gets a major case of bed head... She gets gassy whenever I eat dairy, straight eggs, too much ranch or fruit. Right at this moment shes being a cuddle bug on my chest... Poor lil girl is so worn out... I can't picture my life without her

Ryan now has classes Monday, Tuesday and Friday. He doesn't get home til 10:30pm those days are very long for me... I miss him a lot those days

1am

So its one in the morning and my baby is awake again... She is gassy so I'm guessing I need to add ranch to my list of foods I cant eat. On my list currently is all dairy. If I eat more than a tablespoon of cheese she gets gassy. I think she's going to get me in great shape because of the amount I'm bouncing her with my hips... I don't mind her gassy so much as I wish she would have it during the day not at one am =(

7/8 weeks

Well life is happier in Janell land today. I just fed her on my bad side and it didn't hurt! Do you know what that means??? You can stop hearing about my boobs!!! What people don't understand is I could handle the mastitis, the after burn wasn't the hardest part. The hardest part was having an infected nipple. (I don't think everyone realized that when I was complaining so horribly for so long... everyone has had mastitis not everyone has had an infected nipple on top of it)

Madison at seven weeks has been interesting. She has changed her sleeping pattern so that she will stay up until almost 3 am every night which makes mommy extremely tired. She would eat from 10 pm to 3 am straight when she was doing this so mommy got very very tired and sore at the same time. I'm thinking that when I take her next week to the pediatrician shes going to weigh like 14 pounds. Shes getting hefty! She has fat rolls on her thighs and I've been wondering if she is still fitting in her 1's and been debating if I should break out the 2's. I just started to put her in her 0-3 month pants which are still seriously huge on her. Its almost like they are clown pants. I think its going to be a problem like she'll be wearing 6 month onesies and be in 3 month pants... I'm not sure tho we shall see. My friend Wendy (who is fabulous by the way!) showed me how to use my moby wrap and let me tell you it is the most fabulous thing in the world! She falls asleep almost every time that I put her in it. She just gets so snuggly warm she cant but help give into my wiles and just klunk out! I have gotten her to take a pacifier for a few minutes at a time if I pretty much force her to do it... I haven't figured out a way for her to keep it in her mouth tho. I've also gotten her to take bottles which is a good thing because I have quite the store of milk saved up at the moment. She is turning into a drooly queen. She loves to drool which is kind of cute. She still loves looking at our wedding pictures on the wall and the picture of the temple we have in our room. She has also discovered the digital picture frame I just put up. It just puts her into a trance its funny.

I went with my mom to her stakes relief society function. I didnt mind it was a good program. I wasnt able to watch it all but I liked what I saw. I enjoyed the fact that women I have never met gawking at her and telling me shes so pretty! I even had one ask to hold her (which I didnt have a problem with) it was also nice to see all the people Ive grown up with love on her so much too!

There is crazy pollen going on outside right now! I walked outside yesterday and I was in awe at how much yellow was outside! It was all over our patio and all over my washer and dryer! I'm glad I dont have allergies!

Ryan and I were able to go on our first date since Madison was born. It was interesting to not have her with me. It was like not having my arm or something. We went and had lunch and went to see Battle LA... good movie. We then went out and went costco shopping. Shopping was extremely easier to say the least. After unpacking the food I went and picked my monkey up from my mom. Evidently she almost ate an entire 8ounce bottle I left with her and then she passed out. She slept almost the entire time we were gone. Its a good thing she was so well behaved for my mom! It means we wont burn Grandma out if we use her as a babysitter every once and a while. But I'm not planning on leaving her anytime time soon other than the one shift of work I'm planning on doing.

Mastitis which means tmi... a lot of tmi

Let me tell you how frustrating mastitis really is. I got back to feeding her on my bad side for two days, then it all went to hell in a hand basket. For instance look at the time I'm writing this right now. Yes two am and we are awake. Why are we awake mind you? We were in bed but after an hour of her fervently trying to eat from me I made her the 3.5 ounce bottle that took me four pumping sessions to make her today. Mind you I'm pretty sure she's still hungry and is WIDE awake right now sitting in her bouncy chair. So why wont I feed her on my bad side you wonder? I did feed her on my bad side today for about a minute. I had worked on my bad side for a good half hour in the shower that would melt a normal persons skins off and I felt around and thought it would be fine. I had her latch on and the intense nipple burning and pain was off the charts and so all I could last was a flippin minute. So I think I'm going to be destined to become a pumping queen for the next week or more. I'm not going to make the mistake of trying to feed her before I'm fully healed again. I hate the peer pressure I feel to "suck it up" and feed her on that side. I dont really care about the after burn I get from feeding her its the extreme nipple pain I get from it. I have to do whats right for me. So I'm going to go lop sided for a while and see how it goes. Today I've decided that since I woke up engorged and I couldn't express it out into a bottle or in the shower that I would just let it leak. So I have had a towel under me and have just been letting it go unhindered today. Is it wasting milk that I could be stock piling for her when she decides she wants to be a pig? Probably but my breast wont cooperate and let me catch it so blah... This is SO irritating I cant even put it into words. Telling me over and over again that tons of mothers have gotten it and I should just suck it up just makes me angry so if I hear it one more time I might hurt the person who says it... at least I haven't thrown my hands up entirely and switch to formula which I've been very tempted to do...

Did you know?

Have you met my sister? Jenni? Yes the one that doesn't quite look like me at all but still you can tell we are related? Yes I know... Did you know that she is amazing?
Did you know I miss not seeing her every day?
Did you know we might not look very much a like but we act alike?
Did you know that we like/ dislike the same people?
Did you know it was wonderful to have her here for the week she was here?
Did you know I started missing her the second I stopped hugging her in the hall way of my moms house as we parted ways?
Did you know we talk every day on facebook?
Did you know we help each other cyber stock?
Did you know tend to cry when I think about missing her too much? Like right now?
Did you know she has been such huge strength in my life?
Did you know she's perfect... well she's perfect in her own special way that not everyone understands...
Did you know she has an amazing personality?
Did you know she's like me in the way that we will either be the nicest person you have ever met or you will have us be the worst enemy you have ever encountered?
Did you know you might not like what say but you know its the truth...
Did you know that I love her so much it hurts some times?
Did you know Madison loves her too?
Did you know she misses her too?
Did you know I could probably make this list circle to globe two times over again before I am done listing everything?

4 years, 6 weeks, and mastitis

Madison was six weeks old on Monday. I can't believe shes so old so fast! Why can't time crawl by? I want my little girl to stay little! (Even if she is a beast in her own right) Right now she's making more noises than just crys. She makes these little squeals every now and then that are the cutest thing! They are almost like "Hey look at me!" She's starting to smile a little bit while she's awake now not just when she is sleeping. She has started to giggle in her sleep! Her whole body shakes when she does it and she has this huge smile on her face when she does it! Now to only get her to do it when shes awake... She has (since Saturday) slept with me entirely in the living room but I will get into that later it isn't her fault.

My sister came into town last week and it was soooo nice to have her here even for just a few days. Literally all we did while she was here was hang out. Half the time I was in my pjs doing a whole lot of nothing but isnt that the great part? We went over to her friends house for a few hours (which she was so nice! She even put together a bouncy chair for Madison to keep her happy while we talked! Mind you she was so pregnant that she had her baby the next day, thats its so impressive) We also went to the mall to get Kha some shoes that they dont have in Louisiana.

Come Saturday family came into town because of Madisons blessing. Jeremy, Nicole and Owen came over Saturday afternoon soon followed by my mom and Jenni. That was a lot of fun seeing them! Madison also had her worst blow out to date and got poop up to her shoulders... How she does that I will never know. After they left to take Owen to swim in the pool at their hotel on the other side of the world Ryans family came over and hung out for a while. We watched Toy story one and played pass the baby.

Sunday morning after an extremely LOONNGG night we got ready, grabbed Madison's blessing dress and went to the church. Jenni and I got Madison ready in the mothers room for her big day. I was seriously scared that she would have a massive blow out in her blessing dress but thankfully she didn't. Her circle consisted of: Ryan, Mathew, his dad, Ken and Jeremy. Ryan gave her such a sweet blessing filled with such emotion it was perfect. Ryan did an amazing job not loosing concentration when she started to cry. She evidently as quite a riot up there and just started to fart up a storm and made the poor priest laugh. Its a good thing it didn't make it over the microphone because I'm sure the entire audience would have laughed too. I got good laugh because my cousin Ken came down from the stage holding one of her socks!

We took some family pictures and went over to my mom's house for a family gathering and lunch. It was fun to see all the cousins kids run around and play with each other. It was so nice for my mom to host something like that. Towards the afternoon it was just Jeremy's family at my moms playing card monopoly. I really enjoyed that game even tho I was extremely out of it and not very good at it.

Today Ryan and I have been married for four years. It doesn't seem like its been that long but then again I can't remember my life with out him in it. He's amazing and wonderful and my perfect match. I don't think we are going to do much for it. He stayed home with me today which wasnt the plan but I welcome the company.

I warn you now if you dont want to hear about my boob stop reading now.

So I've had a sore side that nurse on for a few weeks now. I just suck it up deal with the stinging. Well when Jeremy was at my house Saturday I fed Madison on my sore side and she got angry at it. Well once she finished eating my breast literally throbbed for two hours straight. I started to not feel that great and I told Ryan. Well his family came over and I really started to not feel good. I went into the bathroom while they were here and I took my temperature because my eyes started to feel hot. Well i was 99. something then once they left I took it again once they left and I was 100.7. I knew something was wrong and I knew it was mastitis. I fed her on my bad side and it was 100x worse than it had been a few hours before. I was crying so hard I was feeding her it scared Ryan. I called up my cousin Alicia telling her what was wrong looking for help. She talked me off the cliff and told me what to do. So I plugged in a heating pad and prepared for a long night sleeping on the living room floor. The times I did feed her hurt worse every time. By the morning I was cringing at the thought of feeding her on my bad side and it took me ten minutes to psych myself up to feed her. The last time I feed her on my bad side was at my moms during the lunch in. It burned so intensely through the entire thing it was horrible. It normally would let up once she got eating but this time it didnt. I realize right then I couldn't feed her on my bad side anymore. We bought me a pump and some bottles on my way home from my moms. I got into the shower and worked on trying to loosen everything up and I was able to get thick puss out of my breast.By the time I got to the doctors Monday afternoon my breast was almost completely red and my nipple was ugly contorted with infection. My doctor confirmed I was right about the infection and gave me antibiotics for four times a day for ten days. I've been pumping my bad side and feeding her exclusively on my good til her sucks me dry then I give her one of the bottles I've made her. I've broken down twice pretty hysterical at two in the morning because I feel so guilty about not having enough milk for her once shes eaten everything I can give her and she still wants more. I woke Ryan up last night at 4am because I was so hysterical I couldn't deal with it anymore. I was inches away from feeding her on my bad side but I couldnt do it. He took her from me and tried to calm me down. He sent me to the shower so I could relax and he sat Madison on his chest and started to tell her mission stories. He stayed home with me today to help me out. He's amazing... It frustrates me to no end when people try to make me feel dumb about my feelings because I know me and I know my daughter... grr... I will try to feed her again once the infection leaves my nipple so hopefully tomorrow because pumping pisses me off! My cousin Alicia has been a huge help to me this whole time! She talks me through the issues and gives me support! I love having family so close!