the month of July

I will be the first person to admit that I'm the worlds worst blogger. I've said it before and I will say it again... The sad part is that I actually had an eventful month. I currently have my baby sleeping on my lap because we just got home from a weekend at Ely and she didn't have a proper nap so shes getting hers on my lap, I dont mind I'm watching special features of Gone with the wind while Ryan naps in the room and I'm currently craving a blt something fierce.

July has been a blast. The fourth of July was a relaxing day. I went to my moms wards breakfast. Madison played around with plastic spoons and was super cute. The rest of the day

our little family just hung out. Ryan made some burgers and we got a blue ray player and watched Lord of the Rings extended edition. We kept Madison inside and she didn't see

fireworks because I was afraid she would be scared of the fireworks.

My brother and sister came into town! I loooooove spending time with them even tho it went too fast. I hadn't seen John since thanksgiving and he hadn't met Madison yet. Kha and Sonny came too and later in the week Khas cousin Ben came into town. We didn't do anything fantastic we pretty much hung out. We had a bbq the first day then later in the week we walked around and went shopping at the outdoor outlit mall. My place turned into the nap shack. Everyone would just pass out when they came over. We got an updated family picture of sorts. We were all kind of a hot mess but it was funny, even the cat and dog made it in. I always loose it when my sister leaves. I dont normally do it til I'm back home and by myself then I just cry.

Ryan and I decided to go up to Lund for the 24th of July celebration. We realized we needed a hotel this time and we are glad we did. We took Madison swimming for the first time in their indoor pool. Shes a little fish in the water! She kicked and splashed around! She even tried to drink the pool water a few times. When I took her out and gave her a bath to get all the pool water off of her she kept acting like she was still in the pool. We set off at 8am for Lund but before we left we had to go help his brother out and fix a flat on Mathews van. We got to Lund just in time to watch the parade. It was so funny there were mini horses and someone pulling a monty python being followed around with coconuts. Madison got to hang out with her Great Grandparents again and got passed around. We then had a program at the old elementary

school, they also had a little market place where I was able to get Madison some more hair bows. We went over to Ryans grandparents house so I could get Madison to take a little nap which she did but pretty much every member of Ryans family also fell asleep. We went to my first rodeo which was fun! There were some people who got hurt but over all it was interesting to watch... wild cow milking... mutton busting... Madison actually fell asleep for a little while when we were there. We then headed back over to the old elementary school because we were going to watch the fireworks in the field behind it. It was a huge field and they were lighting the fireworks off in the field right in front of it. They were huge and right in front of you. I was so afraid Madison would freak out but she didn't. She actually fell asleep through them. It surprised me to the core because they were L-O-U-D! We got home in one piece with only two pit stops...

Last night was horrible... Madison got sick for the first time last night. After I got home from work I was relaxing and I heard Madison wake up and cry. I went in to check on her and she was wet. I turned on the light and looked at her and there was throw up in her hair. She threw up so much it soaked the comforter, the fitted sheet and it was on the mattress. I freaked out. I mean shes spit up from time to time but nothing like this. I stripped her down and went to go give her a bath and while I was in the bathroom with her she started to heave again... She ended up throwing up six times in an hour. I called her pediatrician thinking i would be leaving a message but they actually have someone to answer the phone and I had a doctor call me back. So I went off to walmart and got pedialite like she said and got back home. I was awake with her til til 4am when i finally dozed off. I was afraid she would puke again and choke or something. She was so pale and was so sad. I hated it more than anything else. Shes completely fine today. a wee bit more tired than normal so a bit more cranky. I think something she ate didnt sit right with her because shes fine now.

I had to stop feeding her baby food for a little while. She got so constipated that she would scream whenever she tried to poop. It was solid, no water and bigger than a gold ball. So shes back to being on straight breast milk unless she seem extremely hungry and eats the food with a spoon...

judgment

I was just cooking dinner and I was thinking about my family. The thought ran into my head

"what if people judge my family?" Then it very quickly turned into

"People really can't judge my family"

My sister Jenni

She seriously is one of the only people I sat there and thought and thought about for judgments they might say. I was able to come up with some for John and I but I can't come up with any for her. She has been in retail management with two different major clothing brands that most people would die to wear! (And fork out $700 just to wear their jeans...) She has had a steady job since she was 16. She is one of the most dependable people I know. I can't think of a time she has ever lied to me. She will hide something from you but if you come right out and ask her she will tell you. She is starting a whole new adventure in Louisiana with the most polite great guy the world could ever ask for! They are perfect together!

My brother John

Now you might say "but he parties!" but I respond "BUT he's had straight A's since the second grade!" He's probably a heck of a lot smarter than you! He's 21 year old hot single college student, he is allowed to let off some steam! If he can work three jobs (yes he has had three jobs at once while in college, not just a class but a full load) and pull off straight A's he can do what ever the heck he wants! Plus when he graduates he's going to have duel majors! How many people can even pretend to say they have come anywhere close to that?

Ryan and I

"But you went back to work after having a baby!"

And? My husband is going to school full time, and is the main tec at the blind center full time! If there was any job openings in his field that offered insurance I wouldn't be working but there isn't unless we move to texas or something but his credits don't transfer! He graduated with freakin HONORS and is making a life for our family so much easier! I am good at my job even if I hate it. I have had a job continuously since I was 16 years old and have been in management for seven years! Ryan is a worthy priesthood holder who was able to bless our daughter!

My parents

So what they got divorced?

So?

Who doesn't? Who can say they made a marriage LAST for 26 years? They have been through such crap that most people have never seen in their lives! They have had hard lives! But they both would do anything in their power for their kids. Both of them are current on their mortgages and pay all of their bills. If you say anything bad about either of my parents I will hunt you down and make you eat your words...

Those thoughts were running through my head while I was cooking dinner... It left me with a smile on my face. I love my family and am so grateful that I am in the one I am!

5 months

(There are a lot of edits in here because I've been writing this for about a week now)

My little baby is five months old this week... it kinda makes me cry that its going to fast! I always feel like I'm not taking enough pictures of her but then again I think I have four gigs already. This girl with have whole hard drives devoted to her!

She isn't really rolling over but thats because she's constantly being held. I'm sure she would do it if I would put her down more but Ryan calls us a kangaroo shes constantly attached to me!

She really love being with me!

(Edit: She has turned into only wanting Mommy at times... She watches me constantly. She will watch me walk around the room when ever anyone else is holding her or she's sitting by herself)

She chooses to be with me more than others but she still gets a huge smile on her face when Daddy comes in! She knows who her Mommy and Daddy are!

She has earned the best baby award for sleeping though the night two times in a row! I'm hoping this is a new development from her! Waking up with a wet shirt is something I will take every day if it means she sleeps from 10 to 6 every day. (and wakes up giggling and talking every day!)

Some days she doesn't poo at all but then the next day when she does let it out you need a hasmat suit! (Edit: She currently didn't poop yesterday or today... tomorrows going to be a huge blow out!)But then again that would certainly make her a Lund! Every Lund is smelly! (If they say they aren't they just lied to you!)

She is so beautiful! I love looking into her beautiful brown eyes and try to see the person that she will become!

She has started to attack your face! What she will do is open her mouth up all the way and slobber kiss you! She licks all over then sucks! When she gets off of you you have this huge drool spot on you but you cant help but laugh! I think she thinks that what you do because she is ALWAYS being kissed on!

I haven't started her on baby food yet but thats because I think shes still a little bit too young for it. I'll probably start it on her six month birthday... I want to keep her "little" for as long as possible! (even if she is 20 pounds!) (Edit: I've fed her rice cereal twice now. I her for the first time on Wednesday the 22nd and she loved eating it! She had a blast... but according to my mom she had an upset tummy when she watched her and got extremely clingy. I fed her again today, less and with a a shot of mylocon before hand to try to help prevent gas that might happen from it. She did good and hasn't seemed too cranky from it. I will only feed her cereal on the days where I will be the one watching her at night. I think I just need to very very slowly ease her into it... She has a sensitive lil tummy)

Her hair is getting so long its getting in her eyes so I have to find ways to do it and keep it out! (Edit: I put it in piggy tails today! Super cute!)

She really is into sitting on our porch and looking at trees. Shes content out there with me sitting her on the wall and her just looking around... mostly up! She really likes the tree thats right outside the window!

People have been annoying the living tar out of me the last couple of weeks because they arent thinking before they talk. For instance theres a woman who i work with that said I looked pregnant... now mind you I weight exactly the same as I did before I got pregnant and I'm wearing my size 12 pants so I just turned to her and said "Wow! That was rude!" She tried to back track and said I was glowing which I quickly retorted "no I'm sunburnt" along with other people saying equally ignorant things. Its like "hello! Think before you talk!" It takes YEARS to get off my poopoo list! I mean seriously just think! I dont care about a lot of things but if you hit certain NERVES with me I lash back. For instance on facebook I don't really care if you tag me in things I normally just blow it off and leave it. But if you do something STUPID enough I will delete your crap and untag myself because it annoyed me that badly. Its like seriously reword your thoughts don't tag me in it and make it cute and I wont really care, but don't bring my daughter into things... EVER even if you think its cute. a joke is meant to be funny. When a joke isn't funny people just sit and stare at you like you've lost your mind... Don't make people look at you funny.

I've been on a cleaning streak lately... You can eat off my floor right now. It just freaks me out thinking about Madison being in a dirty house! I wouldn't think about putting Madison on the floor even on a blanket if it was dirty! Think of everything that she could touch or get a hold of... Heaven forbid she pulls something down on top of her! Plus when a house is dirty you get more bugs and it freaks me out even thinking about roaches being anywhere near her! They carry diseases and thats not something I want around my daughter! Ever since I watched hoarders on netflix one day my apartment has been pretty darn clean! You don't necessarily smell bleach because I dont want that to end up on my hands and then somehow Madison licks it off of me but its clean enough that I could eat off my counter. Roaches.... *cringes*

Our trip to Ely

We just got back from our in between doctors appointment to get her shots and she is currently 19 pounds 12 ounces and 26 3/4 long. She still is out of the percentiles for weight and is the 95 percentile for height. I think its weird that she only gained 12 ounces in three weeks but then again she pooped three times before we left the house and she didn't eat after her nap so she wasn't full and happy like she always is. She really didn't like the three shots she got today. she screamed and screamed and still wasn't happy after I fed her for a little bit. hopefully she will be happier after she sleeps for a while and actually eats a full meal.

we had a lot of fun this weekend! We took a long weekend and went up to Ely! Ryan's work told him he needed to use his vacation or else he would loose it. On the trip up we left decently early in the morning and Maddie only demanded to stop once to eat and play for a little bit so it took us the normal amount of time. When we got to Ely we were surrounded by his family and they loved all over Maddie! But then again who wouldn't love all over Maddie? Every single person

who has ever seen her has loved her! She got to play on her uncle Tommy's shoulders and be kissed all over by her aunts and grandma!

I decided that she would feel so much better from being in the car for four hours so we jumped in

the shower to get the ick of driving off of us. We went to a Mexican restaurant for dinner and

Maddie was an angle. No crying! She just sat on peoples laps and giggled like there was no

tomorrow! When we got back to their house Ryan went about building Mathews new

computer... he loves building people computers! I don't blame him he's darn good at it and its a good skill to have! We watched some Mr. Bean and I realized that I wouldn't be holding Madison very often while I'd be there and it turned into a game of musical baby! She loved all of the attention! Sleeping was interesting... I didn't sleep much because Madison could smell me and she decided to snack every hour on the hour. I soon realized I had to sleep at the foot of the bed and her at the top so she wouldn't eat as much. She still would wake up a heck of a lot more often then her normal two times a night self but five compared to 8 is a lot better prospect!

Saturday we went down to Cave lake to fish for a ward activity! It was the first time that I went fishing that someone actually caught a fish... this was only my second time fishing in the whole life... can't say I'm missing much. I dressed Madison up super cute and slathered her with sunblock. After a short photo shoot we went down to the lake.

All in all they caught nine fish but put them all back into the lake. Maddie took a little cat nap while Ryan had a lot of fun and tried to gross us girls out with the fish he caught... he got one a little bit to close for my comfort so I slapped his fish. Yes, I have slapped a fish!

Ryan and I got pretty sunburnt but we will live! Ryans dad and brother came home from camp helaman (a camp that's meant to prepare young men to go on their mission. Its like girls camp with out the drama) http://camphelaman.com/North/ They told us it was an amazing

experience. Its going to be fun when we will have family home evening to write his brothers

letters when they are on their mission. Maddie will draw them pictures it will be so much fun! His dad has some magic powers with Maddie. He can just look at her and send her into a giggle fit! He can get her laughing better than I can which is impressive. We were in their room when we decided to record a video of it! She must really love her grandpa!

Sunday we went and got ready to go to his old ward. Madison was pretty good. She was quiet until it was the sacrament then she decided it would be fun to talk! But shes cute she can get away with it! His brother Micheal gave a great talk about his time at camp. He had the entire congregation laughing with some of his storys! I didn't really get to go to Sunday school because it was snack time but I was able to go to relief society for the whole time. She was awake just enough to talk through the opening prayer and the closing prayer. She slept the whole other time through. We went over to his grandparents house after the entire house got their Sunday nap which is so nice to have! It was kind of crazy I woke up from mine a little bit before everyone else did and the entire house was quiet... We drove down to lund to go see his grandparents and Madison LOVED to hang out with her Great Grandma Bischoff. It was like she was amazed by her. I made sure that I got a lot of pictures of them together because its nice to have sweet memories like that. I also got the opportunity to get a four generation picture!

How many people can say they have that? We got home and it was a nice night playing dominoes

and games until my monkey passed out on her daddy's lap. She tried to fight it for so long and so hard she finally gave in!

Monday we had a spontaneous family picture outing at the train station. The photographer was a blast and we should have some super cute pictures of Maddie! We also have our first real family pictures taken! I can't wait to see them! We also went down to the copper mines to look at the pits. Its hard to wrap your mind around how big they really are! They are pretty to look at I have to give them that much! You don't really see colors like that anywhere else.

Our drive home was much different from our drive to. I think we left way too late (around 2 or 3) because she just wasn't happy being in the car. I think we stopped four different times... The last time we stopped she cried for almost a half hour because there was no where for us to stop. So I cried with her at the truck stop trying to calm her down. Her little sniffs from being hysterical break my heart! I have such a soft heart for her. I hate to see her sad! But we made it home and she can now sleep in her own bed!

I'm so grateful for my family! I'm so glad that I'm sealed to my husband for time and all eternity! I'm so glad that Madison is going to grow up with her father in her life! That she is never going to question his love for her! I', so grateful that we have her in our lives! She is so beautiful and perfect in every way that everyone stops us to see her and love her. I'm so grateful that she is such a daddys girl that she gets this huge grin on her face when ever she sees him and starts to giggle! I look forward to seeing them together as time goes along. He tells me that he pictures her a little bit older with pigtails of long brown hair and it makes him tear up! I'm so grateful that he is such a wonderful father and husband to us!

I'm starting to get really freaked out by dirtiness around a baby. Now I'm not talking about clutter here and there I'm talking about to walk in and it looks like a bomb went off, so dirty you cant see the floor. When there are children around especially babys that makes me mad. Do you not care about your children? Do you sit there and wonder about the bug bites they have on them because of the filth they live in? I mean how do you baby proof that? With boxes and papers and binders piled up all over the floor aren't you asking for an accident? That when they go to pull themselves up on something aren't you worried that they will pull down the entire pile on top of them? I'm not going to say that my place doesn't get cluttered because there are some days where I get nothing done but nothing THAT bad...

my baby

I never realized how much you can truely love a person until I had my daughter. Its just this overwhelming joy I get when I even look at her. Shes so happy and giggly and such a wonderful baby! I'm glad she's my first. I find her so funny when she grabs her dish towels and just giggles like she stole it and its her treasure. She licks me and licks me then giggles! How could you not love her?

4 months old today!

My Maddie is four months old today! How come time is going so fast? She is SO big! I find out on Thursday how BIG she really is! I feel like she has more than doubled her birth weight already (that would be 17 pounds 10 ounces) I'm pretty darn sure she is teething, she is drooling about a gallon a day and I'm seeing little white spots on her gums and she gets a bit cranky every now and then.

I think she is rather funny. She really really likes dish towels. I give them to her when she's in her bumbo and she hugs them and giggles crazily! She is my super cute sweet baby! I have started to take baths with her... now why you ask! Well she is too big for her little baby tub but yet she isn't strong enough yet to sit up by herself so I decided that I would hop into the tub with her and see how it worked out. I'm amazed with how relaxing it is so I've decided that that is how she shall take baths until she can sit and stay on her own!

She sleeps through the night every once and a while, she normally sleeps until three then eats then goes back to sleep. I'm ok with either way... I tend to wake up with my shirt completely soaked when she sleeps through the night so if she wakes up to have a little snack it saves me some laundry. (yes I know you ALL wanted to know that!) Madisons new favorite thing is to chew on our hands. She doesnt like teething rings but our fingers? Oh look out! That and she licks you... not like her tongue is out and she might accidentally brushes you with it oh no like she grabs your hand giggles then licks the palm of your hand! I heart my wiggle monkey!

I'm a bad blogger...

I'm not a very good blogger. I feel like I'm falling behind on my blogging duties... Bad me...

My first mothers days wasn't horribly eventful which I'm greatful for. Last year on mothers day was a horrible horrible day for me. I was a wreck! I wasn't even pregnant by that time and I tried to hold it together but I believe I cried a lot that day. This year was much better!Ryan got me and my mom flowers. We woke up and got ready for church. I took some adorable pictures of Miss Madison (she would look cute in a potatoe sack come on!) We just hung out as a cute little family. We put together her crib that we are borrowing from my cousin (Oh I love my cousin Alicia and Ken! Amazing!) (it was kinda funny I had her sleeping in the kitchen in the bassinet while we put it together) my parents came over later in the evening to hang out. We got on the subject of family history and how frustrated I am with my dad's mom's side (to show how frustrating it is his sister doesnt even show up and she died in the late 90's) and we decided to see how far back we could go on his dad's side and we hit a string (already in new family search done for me) that went back to 1040 in Kent England. The De Dennes (royalty of coarse!) and we found a website devoted to them and their family. It had family crests and geneology that went back to 945! So I count my dad's dad side done I just need to do his moms and its going to be hard... Well once my parents left Maddie gave me the best mothers day gift ever! She slept through the night! We put her in bed around 9:30 and she slept til 6:30! Isn't she amazing? I heart her so much for letting me sleep sometimes... my chest doesnt but everything else does.

Maddie has discovered the art of rolling over. She started to do it and Ryan helped her out, she then decided to do it three times in a row! It made me happy to see her do it! She hasn't done it since but she's turning into a lil fish! When ever we go to change her diaper she arches her back and twists around. Its like she wants a good view of her wipes that are right above her head or something. Its kind of funny... I gave birth to a wiggly little fish!

She is currently sleeping on me. Perfect little girl. She has her hand grasping my top like a security blanket trying to not let me go. I love my cuddle time with her. Shes my perfect little angel... even when she does cover me in poop!

Ryans dad came into town with some of his siblings the other day and came to come see my Maddie. Its always fun when Ryans family comes into town! They played musical baby and passed Madison around. She had her first trip on Grandpas shoulders! She had a blast! She even licked his head,,, she made a face. I guess his head wasn't very tasty! She liked hanging out with Emily, she hadn't seen her since she was a week old. She's seen Tommy the most! She really likes his shirts every time she sees him! I guess the next time she sees any of them is when we go up in June or July to rebuild Mathews computer.

Madison is starting to drool gallon of spit every day! Shes completely covers her clothes in it. I thought shes teething the other day now I'm not sure. Shes not cranky she's still her happy giggly self. She doesn't have the teething diaper rash from acid poo. She doesnt have white spots on her gums, if she is teething she isn't acting like it at all.

I'm trying to get Madison to fall asleep on her own which is harder than it sounds. I would love to be able to put her in her bed walk away and ten minutes later shes asleep. She fought me so hard on it the other day after hearing her cry for ten minutes I gave up. Sometimes I can put her in her bed and she will giggle herself to sleep after a while. She's getting more and more consistent with her sleep. She falls asleep every night between 9:30 and 10:30. Sometimes like last night she falls asleep earlier but shes normally pretty consistent. She waked up once around four (or last night 2) to eat then she goes back to sleep til 6ish which is when she wakes up for good. She tends to take two naps a day one for about an hour and another for a few more. She normally wakes back up from her second nap at like 5:30 then shes awake tile bed time. Sometimes she fights hard its like shes so tired she wont fall asleep. Most times you just need to rock her for a while and she eventually gives in to the sleep.

Madison and I have started to go on "Kitty hunts" now what exactly is a kitty hunt you wonder? Well there are so many cats in our apartment complex you cant go more than five feet with out coming upon one. So a kitty hunt is Madison and I walking around the apartment complex looking at everything trying to hunt down the kittys... its kind of fun! I hadn't really explored the complex before and now I'm finding big open grassy areas that will be fun for her to crawl around on when she gets big enough.

I'm becoming to accept being at work. I don't like the fact that I'm so good at something that I dislike so much but I need the insurance. I finally got paid Thursday after nearly a week of their mistake of not paying me... I wasn't all that concerned about the money but it was their mistake and I dont work for free. I'm just glad Madison is starting to enjoy her Daddy and me time. I haven't gotten a call of "she wont stop crying" since the first night when she wouldn't take a bottle.

I dont think I can say enough how much I love my little girl. I love seeing her little naked booty. I LOVE taking pictures of it! I think she might kill me later in life because of the shear number of booty pictures I have of her but I can help it! I love it so much!