another update that took me three weeks to write lol

(started 9/16)

I'm currently sitting in my living room with a baby who has been up since two am. Now its normal for her to periodically wake up in the night and I just nurse her back to sleep so why should tonight be any different?

Well I finally left the bed at 3am because she had nursed for an hour straight and I was sore.

2. I am not a pacifier...

so after rocking her, pleading with her and using every tool in my box I gave up and we are currently watching lost while I start her on cheerios... my squirrley 7 month old. Im starting her on cheerios because her ped said it was fine to start her on big people food and she goes crazy over puffs. cheerios are a heck of a lot cheaper and smaller so she seems to be doing fine. Ryan and I are planning on getting her a high chair tomorrow so we can let her go crazy in it. Shes already eating bananas. I cut then up and feed her... She loves to grab them and squish them sooo I need to feed her in something other than her bumbo so she wont try to mash them into the carpet.

Madison is trying super hard to crawl. She gets into position and rocks back and forth. She doesnt crawl persay she kind of scoots but you dont realizing she is until you turn around and she somewhere completely different. Her favorite thing to do now is lick the fridge and play with the knobs to the entertainment center. You have to be careful or else the volume will turn up dramatically out of nowhere and you look and there she is

(9/25)

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So my baby turned 8 months old yesterday and it freaks me out a little bit. I seriously hate how old she is getting. I love it because she is turning into her own little person but then again I always want her to stay little and be my little baby forever. She most definitely has her own little personality. She wants what she wants and she lets you know. She is starting to babble which is super cute. She does surprises you sometimes. One night when Ryan was watching her, he was changing her diaper and she was crying and looked up to him and said "mama" Tonight while I was cleaning up and Ryan had her she wasn't too happy with it and then again out came "Mama" Its like woooaaa is she really asking for me or just babbling? She tends to only do it when she is under duress. The high chair is seriously the best thing we could have ever bought. I wish that we had bought it months ago! She seemed a little bit unsure of it when I first put her into it but then I put cheerios in it and she loved it. So far Madison eats :Bananas, strawberries, peaches, bread, bacon, ground beef, chicken, sour cream, eggs, cheese... I'm giving her a little bit of everything I eat so she can try it too (hint the bacon) So far she seems to like the enchilada beef I share with her a lot (we seriously eat a lot of those in our family. I make them once a day... We get into food kicks and right now thats what we are on. A few weeks ago it was scrambled eggs and bacon. I bought two 18 packs of eggs on Monday and they were gone a few days later)

She is NOT a good sleeper... not at all , what so ever, I miss sleep... She changed her bedtime from 7:30 to close to 10-10:30 which means she sleeps til about 8am... So Last night she slept from 10:30 til 1, she didn't stop nursing til 1:30ish back into her bed woke up at 4 nursed forever again then back into bed and she slept til 8... now why would I be tired so often? I cant really sleep while shes nursing... dose off a little bit sure but not sleep. Not to mention the fact that on Sunday she wouldn't go back to sleep after nursing so She woke up at 4am and after an hour of nursing she was still giggling in the bed so we left the bed at 5 and watched an episode of Lost. She fell back asleep and went back to her bed at 6:30 and since it was Sunday and I had to be up soon anyways for church I stayed awake... yeah Sunday was a tired tired day for me since I didn't get off work the night before til 11pm... Am I asking for sympathy? Not really I'm just stating a fact that I don't think shes completely in love with sleeping yet.

Madison is entering the phase of only wanting to go to me. I feel bad for my mom because she thinks shes getting abandoned whenever she sees her and she freaks out. She doesn't go to Ryan half the time and I try to tell her that. Ryan trys to grab her sometimes and she arches her back away from him. She really loves me and its super cute. I just wish she would be willing to go to someone else once and a while... My brother evidently did the same thing, my mom just doesn't remember when he stopped doing it so I'm not sure when it will end...

I'm looking forward to a year from now. We will be moving (our lease will be up and theres no way I'm going to spend another year in a one room with Madison in the same room as us) Ryan will almost be done with his degree (he will graduate December 2012) and *hopefully* the market will be better so he will have a better job in his field. It just seems like there will be an exciting time in our lives.

I'm soooo looking forward to thanksgiving week. Ryan and I are going to take the week and go to Ely. We need time away from Vegas. My work and his work are kind of driving us crazy. Plus Madison will get to meet her cousin who is due the end the October. She needs to be around Ryan's family more often. We already have her little sweater so she'll be warm while we are there.

We still haven't picked out what Madisons costume is going to be. Ryan told me that I'm not allowed to have her be the entire cast of wizard of oz... I figured I'd start looking when its October...